Not completely, but ending in light.

I'm not completely happy with what I have in my life. Everything is so different from what I imagined it would be... I have what I wanted some weeks ago, but it changed. Somehow the energy is not as right as I imagined, and anything that happens to me, just changes as it goes by... They change in the wrong sense; and it hurts to think that I want to leave everything behind when it is all perfect. Life is hard... I can already predict the future of this relationship... I'm going to end up breaking it. I can feel that, but I don't want it to end... I want it to go on, to come to life, to bring up what is really inside of it, what can really happen if we open our borders, and explore the outside world of dreams. I know we can go on for much longer, but we just have to open up to the real world, and really be what we are... That way, this relationship will not end, and it will stay in sunshine. Otherwise, it's just going into the land of black clouds and darkness. I love him! But I'm too scared...