Why?

Something is going the other way around. Something is creating space between certin aspects of my life in which I know I don't exactly belong. I look for a place to be, and where to feel safe, but I find nothing inside of myself, and I know no place where I can find this. I want to be able to close my eyes and listen to my heart, silencing everything around me, making everything go away, letting everything go. 

Should I speak? Should I stay silent? I think I won't know, until I really find something that tells me I should remember to tell someone about this. I can't go on this way, and I want to talk to someone about this. But I still don't know if I can. This is hard to do, and easy at the same time. I'm sad, and happy. I get up extremely happy and energetic, but as the day goes by, I get sadder and more and more tired. I know something in me is wrong, but I'm still not sure what. I want to know, let me know. I just want to be happy... Stop with this melancholy. It's hurting me too much.